Tonight I'm feeling rather lonely.
Just a couple hours before, I accompanied my friend to her cousin's engagement party. Surrounded by unfamiliar faces and some familiar, it was slightly awkward but tried to make myself feel comfortable. I just gave polite smiles and people watch. All the little kids running around, family bonding... Made me feel a little jealous. I wish I had family gatherings to go to, or yet be with my family and my boyfriend.
And then, when I was inside, they started to karaoke... The lights went out and my friends cousins grabbed his fiancée to the center of the room and started to dance and sing to her as the whole family watched...it was so sappy but so sweet at the same time. It made me wish for my baby to be here. I watched them..and I was feeling so happy for them...
I left because I couldn't take it anymore.
My eyes swelled as I feel myself get emo-overload. I miss my bee.
All and all, being there made me wish I could be with family...and start my own.
Until then, I lay here and end another night.
I hate feeling lonely and tonight is one of those nights. Bah.
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