It's 1am and tonight I failed. I watched helplessly as it died. I feel broken... with a sad realization that I cannot save everything.

With so much optimism for life... When death happens I cannot deal with it.

I feel like this death is caused by my hand. Damn my compassionate ways. I hate being like this... For I should have left it alone.

It would have been better off without my help.

I'm sorry.

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